Look I did math today!!!

1 vent iced coffe + 1 Lgr Rockstar energy drink = 1 very caffeinated Mavi!!!!! okay so mathmatically it dosnt work out but it's still true non the less! For thoes of you who new me in my younger years or even have seen me ammped up like this before you would all agree! Yeah so Ive been ampped up since about... ohhhhh.... 10:00am this morning!!! I worked out for and hour and still have all the energy in the world!!So if youe exahusted soory I took your energy... I'm going to crash sooooo hard later tonite! It will prolly be right in the middle of bible study! Ha... not so funny... anywho!!!! Okay then Im gonna go do nothing now... Yes only and hour and a half then im free!!!!

Back in the Saddle again...

Okay so Ive been back from my trip for a while now, but I'm just now starting to feel more normalized... if that's even a word! I'm back into the swing of things. It's nice to have constants in your life. Mine is the constant search for that perfect job. I haven't found it yet but I'm fervently looking. I'm good at so many things but I'm without certificates or degree's that so many would like or even require. SO I search fro the second on my list or the entry level so that maybe just maybe through years of climbing that corporate ladder I can reach the top... HA yea right. I know that's how they say it works but really people are going to hire who they know or like before who's best for the job. Most people already have an idea of who they want or who they think will best suit them. I understand wanting the best person for the job, but not giving others a chance because you have already pre picked your ideal is unfair. I can hear my dad now... who said life's going to be fair? It's not fair its a busy unpredictable world and I'm just one little ant. I guess I just have to keep following where I think God wants me to be and to keep striving to be the best I can be no matter how I'm treated.

Snow

Okay so Im in New York... and we spent the day all over the city. But the main reason Im writing while I should be sleeping is because I had to document the fact that it SNOWED here today. Not enough to stick to the ground but it was visible and I saw snowflakes one even got in my eye... anyway just had to let yall know!

New York Jet setter!!!

Well Im off to jet set as they say! Well in a few hours Im off to New York! Im so excited i cant even tell you! I will be home in a week and cant wait to tell you all about my adventures! I will miss my friends and family but sooooo excited to spread my wings!!! Well I need some sleep so Imoutta here!

Good bye lil red focus...

So it's official... this week sucks. I got a call from my dad letting me know that my car... my cherry red focus, is scrap metal. Yes its true my lil red rocket is no more... So Kris I will be needing that eulogy! Anyway, I'm trying to make lite of the fact that this week has been the hardest I've had to deal with in a long time. A friend reminded me that its God testing me, and I agree. The problem with that is I feel weak, he jokingly suggested that I should work out... but he was right in a twisted way. I do need to work out spiritually, I have handled more then this before and I can handle it but i haven't been reading the Word much this week... bad I know. I know that God is going to test me and stretch me but it's how well I have prepared for that time that helps me get through it, and I must admit that I am poorly armed for this weeks tests... My bad, there's no one else to blame... My car isn't the only thing that is going on but it all seems almost trivial now that I have realigned my focus!... oh My focus.....

My car accident...

Well for those of you who haven't heard... I was in a car accident yesterday. I lost control of my car on t the 163 on ramp and spun hopelessly out of control... I had finally stoped spinning but the problem then was I was quickly moving towards the concrete wall that was going to end my movement. I did end up hitting that wall and coming to an abrupt and scary halt. Watching that wall come closer and closer was THE scariest thing Ive ever gone through... It hit the driver side so I had what i have jokingly called my close encounter with the cement wall... I'm fine, if you were wondering... Very sore but I seem to be fine. I had to climb out of my car over the wall and through the mud to get to the police car. It was quite the scene I'm sure... My mom called at that moment, I can only imagine what was going through the cop's head when I asked him to hold my phone as it's ringing "I'm like a bird, I'd only fly away..." Oh boy what a day...

Oh the blessings...

So i'm in my new place. I L.O.V.E. it... I'm creating my own way of doing things and it's so much fun. I have groceries now so I made my lunch. That use to seeem like a chore but now that its my food and my place its almost FUN! Living this close to the beach is going to be a blast this summer... I see sick days in my future...hahaha! Anyway, all this to say is God is AMAZING and has blessed me beyond anything I could have imagined!

Well it's about time...

There are very few things I wait for in life... 1. The man that will be my husband and 2. My very own place. Well Im not engaged... Im moving!!!! My friend and I have FINALLY found this adorable little appartment. It feels like an accomplishment, even though I'm fuly aware that I did nothing it was all God and His perfect timing. Im so excited to see what kind of new adventure I will have, how things will change, and if I will change. This is a new chapter in my book that I get to write and Im excited to see what it will bring..

15 DAYS TO GO... MAYBE...

Ok so I have a possible "official" move in date... no idea if it will really happen... but if it doesn't then I guess its not the place for me...Im thinking if it dosnt work out by that date its not the place for any of us...God will provide the best answer... I have other options but there confusing... anyway, Im eager to see the 15th and to HOPEFULLY move in!

Home sweet home???

Ok so that last place didnt work out. But thats ok... I know God has perfect timing and the best place for us. We are still talking to the guy with the house so its not like we have to start from scratch. I think the process of looking for and not getting that last one was a little show for us. To show us where we are, how blessed we are and how hard it really is out there in the real world. Yes the house we have been dealing with has been a bumpy ride but where in San Diego are you going to find a three bedroom 1 car garage for $900.00 a month!?! So anyway, we are still on the hunt but also soooo ready to have a place to call home...

Hmmmm LIFE...

hmmm Its funny how life works. You will travel down a road so far only to discover it has ended or that you have been on the wrong one all that time. God certanly has His mysterouse ways. Me and my two other soon to be roomates had a house that we were all geared up to move into... but that has not worked out. Which in the long run is probbaly a good thing. See our would-be land lord has not been very good with dead lines. Every time we had a possible move in date something else wouuld happen adn our move would be delayed. Well a few things are one thing but we have been dealing with this since October of 06. Anyway, the good news is we will be meeting with another apartment place today, we acctually saw the place yesterday but today we will turn in our paper work to see if we get accepted. Im all nervous and excited inside. I cant wait to see what happens!

Im going to Disney Land!!!!

Im going to Disney Land!!!!! Im soooo excited. Me and two friends are hittin the road all kinds of crazy early tomorow and Going to spend my Birthday in Disney Land. The weather forcast says that its going to be 69 and sunny! A perfect day for a theme park!!!

Im leavin on a jet plane dont know when Ill be back again...

All my bags are packed and Im ready to go... well not really but I did book my plane ticket! I will in New York over spring break! Im soooooooo excited! I have only ever been there once and that was the summer of 99. It was my graduation presant from my aunt and uncle. They lived there so I stayed with them for about a week. It was the summer so it was crazy hot and my Uncle lived there as a kid so he really didnt want to do all the touristy thinngs I was dieing to do! But this time I have time and less heat on my hands! I will be free to roam about NYC!

Valentines Day!!!

Well... its Valentines day. Enough said.

New York here I come!!!

So my roommate and some friends of mine have shared with me that they are going to New York city over spring break. I'm so jealous! So my jealously moved me so much that I found myself on travalocity's web site and I found really cheap tickets! I think I might be on my way to New York over spring break this year! I'm so excited! New York is my favorite city so far! I have had an infatuation with New York since I was a kid! I really cant explain why I just love it... I could see myself living in Manhattan with my family one day...Maybe! All I know is I want to live there for at least one year! Still a little bit of a fantasy for me, who knows what God has in store for me! My soul is a Gypsy's soul and loves to move around and see the many different cultures and ethnicity's around the globe! New York is just one of those places!

busy busy...

OK so now I'm busier then ever but I'm loving every minuet of it! I have my regular job at the community center, but now I have a part time as a personal assistant! Which is my dream job. Its only part time now but if nothing else it will give me the "EXPERIENCE" I need to get a better or full time position as a personal assistant!!! Any who, I am also very involved in two ministries at my church! I'm so excited to be doing youth work and to to be starting up a young adults ministry! It has been on my heart for a few years now and to actually have the opportunity to help create and to be apart of this ministry is really a dream come true!!! And the last thing that is keep my time hostage... is school! I love school but detest MATH! Which is the one class I have this semester! As a business major I will have to take math again but it will be disguised as statistics or analytical business.... tricky tricky!

I have a Dream...

Have you ever wanted to start a letter with I have a dream and continue on to say something profound? I have, I love writing its a passion I've had since i was a kid. For as long as I remember I have been writing short story about my barbie dolls and princess being saved by the knight on the white horse. As I get older I want my stories to mean more then just a little girls fantasy's come to life through a grown woman's writings. Not to say that children's stories aren't of any use, I actually have a few cute ideas for some. I'm just saying that i wish I had something important that I could bestow on the world. Maybe one day...

Hopeful but waiting...

Here i am hopeful but waiting... that right there is the story of my life. I dont typically let things get me down... I get frustrated and angy but I try to remember that Gods in controll and theres nothing I can do to change what He has planned...so Im trying not to get super bumbed about all the set backs but it's hard. Our movin date has been pushed ack to the first of February. Well between the first and the third... The house is looking great and things are getting better but I have been so ready to be in that house for so long that every time the date gets changed I can feel this slipping away. Im not worried even though I am whining about it. I know God will do whatever He has planned but I was pretty sure this is His next step for me... I guess I just felt like i needed to vent. We had what was suposse to be a meeting turned into a viewing of the house... Helloo! ive seen the house. I wantted to discuss the paper work and store some stuff in the garage! But instead I got sorry wait for another what was it 11 to 12 days then you we can do all that!!!! GRRRRRRRRR..... *sigh* ok im better now!

Relase, release my heart crys out
let these demons out
To release would be a sin
unforgivable and deplorable
So deep inside they live within
thriving on the secresey.
Don't spill the beans don't drop that pot
don't let the cat out of the bag
they say, this is a matter for the family
my heart crys out release, release...

I want to write...

Have you ever wanted to write about something meaningful but feels so inadequate? I do all the time. I love to write and feel like I might have a gift for it. I want to use it to show the world something though. To educate or inform on things that matter as opposed to my daily ramblings of my life. I know my life matters and means something but it needs no explanation. I'm open to any ideas. I want this year to mean something more... Maybe this is just the passionate artist inside crying to get out! ha! I want to draw, take pictures and write and I want these things to show the beauty I see in this world. God created this planet and this creature to praise and worship him and I want to do that through these tools. I just don't feel adequate...

The Davinci Code

I am a simplistic women with complicated thoughts. A walking contradiction, but who isn't! It's what makes us human. If we didn't differ then we would all be the same and that is boring... I know this isn't an original thought but that doesn't make it false! I like thinking and the more complex the thought well... the funner the process. I just saw the Davinci Code the other nite... I know what took me so long? Well my life is full and busy and there just hasn't been any time. That's beside the point, so I thought it was interesting. It made me think, I like action adventure films that have twist and turns in them. So this was entertaining for me. Before the film came out there was major hoopla about it impacting the christian community but after seeing it I really don't think the christian community had any reason to be concerned.While it was an entertaining film it wasn't convincing enough to me. The things they claimed as fact my look threatening on paper but when the actors themselves said them they came out a little obscure. All in all I have to say it was entertaining and it made me think.

Today...

Today is the day
I will try again,
Today I will rise
Though I may fall
And tears may well up
I will not brake
Though I am fragile
I am not broken.
January 2007